In English

Hey all!

I may not write correctly, but tomorrow I"ll correct my mistakes. Or maybe not, and I'll just post whatever I write. It's in english so..mistakes are OK. So yesterday I had to work with Bianca and Jennifer and they are crazy and...I don't know. I was so fucked-up, I wanted to go home. There's only two reasons, why I wanted to stay. Guess what it is. Yeah, the first is money, and the second is that smile is so pretty. xD I'm totally into him. I may be stupid or call me whatever you want, but when he smiles I forgot all of my misery. He's so..nice and handsome and his hands are warm. His whole self is warm. So I don't want to go home, not yet, not until I get what I want. I want my salary, I want to go to a nice holiday maybe on an island, and I want him. I totally want him.

And today..Jennifer was all right, and Bianca wasn't there, he was with my guy. (And he were smiling all day long. I may be stupid, but..I never see smile him like that when it's someone else. Maybe I just don't want to see. Who knows..) So today was fine, in the morging I was with Mario (the stinky guy) and with Dragana (she's somewhat..crazy..I mean there's something with her mentally and I'm not just imagining these things. Not these. Maybe the smiles, but this is sure.) So actually Jennifer was quite normal with me today. The guests came at the same time, it was crazy, but I enjoyed it soo much. It was a big rush and just working working working, you know. So today I was hilarious, so Jessica was somewhat nice, too. Comparing her to yesterday. (It won't be yesterday when I'll post this, but you get what I mean.) She even said thanks and all. That was such a good feeling. Yesterday the handled me like I was just a piece of shit and worthless. Today was fine, and kinda fun. We drank beer after the shift (not with Jessica or she's Jennifer, I don't know. We have both xD) So I was drinking with the hungarian guy and Dragana, Rosangela (she' so nice :D) and Julia. I think I've already mentioned Julia, she's from Croatia, and she's in love with Gergő, that hungarian guy. She said I'm a nice girl, and she likes me. That was soo good to hear :D And tomorrow, I have a half day-off, so I'm not working in the morning. I will be sleeping until half past eight or so, and than I'll be dress up go for a lunch, maybe I'll be able to meet with Ruben. *Heart is beating heavily, my nose is bleeding xD* We have to do the buffet for morning, and when I went there to help, I said Hey I'm yours, and he said, really? And I was just like..when you left butter in a hot plate or something. xD I was melting, and all of this girly shit. I can't do anything against it. He's..hrr <3 I wanna bring him here, and do him. I'm insane xD No, I'm just young and I have needs. He's one of my needs. I don't know, if you all ever felt the same, but when I see him, and when he's smiling, I really forget every shit that happened to me. This is so strange... I wanna spent my half day-off with him, maybe at lunch I'll have the opportunity to speak with him a little more. Such a nice guy. He's either homo, or has a girlfriend, or my wishes will came true xD  The last one would be so nice.

Anyway, I started watching Bunraku. It's so much fun. So stupid. You Gackt fans out there, you should really watch it. This film is..there's no words to describe it. Stupid. :D However, I love it xD Gackt is so..oh I'm the good guy and anyway fuck me, and I'm a samurai and so precious, I have so big ideas, missons and all this shit. So much fun. :'D 'Kay, I'll go to sleep now, I don't wanna sleep tomorrow afternoon. I need to wash my clothes, surf on the Internet, and make a guy mine. :D Big plans, eh?

Love you all, my dears. Please take care of yourself while I'm not home.

Bye <3